With the girls birthdays being so close and my moms birthday smack bang in the middle and Jean's birthday shortly after Dillons birthday it seems that I spend I good month baking cupcakes and cakes and the other day while I was moaning about it (purely to hear the sound of my own voice, not cause I actually have a problem with all the baking) saying that next time I think Im just going to order the cakes, my mom pointed out something to me. She said - the girls will grow up knowing and thinking back about how all their birthday cakes were made by their mom and how it would bring them good memories.
This got me thinking... I think my mom has a point. I wont be winning any "mommy of the year award", I know this! There are a lot of areas in motherhood that I suck at, I know this too.. but if one day when I die and my girls are grown woman and they are going through photos and chatting about their childhood and their memories, this just might be something they will remember and hopefully appreciate, maybe even laugh and smile about. By no means is cake baking supposed to make up for all the mistakes Ive made being their mother.. losing my temper over split juice or depriving them of that cupcake cause I felt they didnt deserve it or even shouting at them cause I was tired and just wanted some peace and quite.. but this could be one thing that could replace a bad memory with a good one... maybe.
I wouldnt go as far to say that I LOVE baking their cakes.. but I do enjoy it, I enjoy it cause while Im mixing and pouring and waiting for the cakes to come out the oven and getting cramps in my hands from performing the tedious task of icing the cakes.. I think of the joy Im going to see in their faces.. the smiles and the "thats AWESOME mom!" comments. I enjoy the very serious conversations weeks before the actual birthdays about what they want their cakes to look like and what colours and themes they want. I enjoy the thought of making their wishes come true and gladly and lovingly giving my children exactly what THEY want for their very special day.. the day they entered the world, the day they gave ME the best birthday gift.. themselves!
So if it means I have to do this every year for the next 45 years - so be it. I will gladly give them this little bit of good memories :)
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